Today, I am celebrating my 28th birthday. Twenty eight years… looking back, I asked myself if it is a life that I would want to start over, am I contented or are there some parts of it that I want to erase. I guess, it is more of the erasing some parts. My life is not perfect, of course. I had my ups and downs, just like everyone else. Yet, I guess, I am thankful for whatever I am now. The parts that I would want to erase happened to teach me something and sometimes, things had to be learned the hard way I guess.

Twenty eight years is already quite long but there are still a lot of things that I want to accomplish and experience. Yet, I also feel that my life is just beginning. Before I finish college, I told myself that I should have a car and a house at the age of 25. I am now 28 and I don’t even have a dime in my savings account, I don’t have a house, and I don’t have a car. My life had been bumpy along the way and it is only late last year that things seem to fall into place. My goal now is to have a savings of at least a hundred thousand by the end of this year. I know I can do it but I can only start by March. I also got an insurance so in case something happened to me, my family won’t have to mind where they will get the money for my funeral..hehehe…

Somehow, I still think about what God really plans for of me. Going to the convent seem a bit off but we will have to see by next year. It is a bit hard out here to really follow the teachings of the Catholic church. With the world being to materialistic and being surrounded by people who have that mentality, it is hard to remain focused on ones spiritual needs. Sometimes, you are urged to conform yet, at the end of th e day, you realize that you are wrong . Sometimes, with all these new rules and thinking set out, you can have a hard time discerning when something is still normal or when you are already becoming greedy. But through all these 28 years, I never found my happiness in material things nor in fleeting pleasures. I never loved drinking alcohol - what is good about drinking something that tastes awful then having a hang over the next day? Except when you spend it with your family or friends and you get to bond with them, there is really no pleasure in drinking at all. Same goes with smoking - you get nothing good out of it. Smoking in public, especially in public vehicles is definitely a taboo for me. I find it being inconsiderate.

This reminds me of this quote from the Bible: ” What profits a man when he gains the whole world but loses his own soul?”. I don’t think anyone will find true happiness just by having a lot of money and having no friends nor family. I find happiness when I see people smile when you do something good for them. I feel truly blessed when I feel that I did something that will make their life better. I feel bad when I know that I did something that can negatively affect someone - well, sometimes, it is part of my job.

I am now beginning another year of my life. I don’t really know what’s in store for me - perhaps, there will be another heartbreak or find new love, better salary, reaching my dreams or encountering some more bumps. Well, this is life and I know that everything happens for a reason. I will cry and mourn for the night but smile in the morning and greet the sun. God is with me and everything will be alright - maybe not in this lifetime but definitely in the life after this.

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