Through the Subic experience, I realized that most of the best things in life does not really have to be something you planned. Sometimes, it is best to just go with the flow and let the wind blow you away. It does not matter where it takes you because you can be sure that it will only take you to where you really belong.

I realized that almost every good thing that happened in my life are those that I did not exactly plan to happen. After college, I planned to work in a big corporation like San Miguel, PLDT, Nestle, Shell, and all the other big players. My first job is in a bank, a small bank that is now non-existent. Then, after that, I was able to work at PLDT. At that time I was praying to God that I will get a regular job there. That did not happen. Now, I am working in a company I have never heard of before and I can say that this is my place in the sun. I have a good boss who trusts me and takes care of me.

I also planned my wedding with my ex but that did not happen. I stayed in that relationship using my mind, though not in a way that most people think I should. I believed then that no one can ever love me like he does. I believed then that he will not betray me because he used to be my friend. I believed that his parents will not allow their son to wander because they know me and they love me. I believed in the story that I wrote about us. A story with a happy-ending so that even when things do not really turn out right, I still insisted that the story should not end that way. I wrote a story and I intended to stick with it. It was too good to end that way. But turn out that my story is just fiction and God wanted me to let go of it a long time ago.

Good things came out from the things that I did not plan. Good things came out when I did not have control over the situation. Given a choice, I would have held on to my relationship with my ex. But God gave me no choice at that time that I had to let him go. Now, I have realized that it was not meant to be. God gave me no choice when I was not accepted in the job that I want but now I have more than what I asked for. God took away something from me, but He has replaced it with something better. Sometimes, it is hard to accept because we think that what we want is already the best. Yet, when things begin to reveal themselves, when things fall into place and when we let God hold the reigns, that is the time we realize that what we have now is something far better than what we have let go of. This lead me into thinking that when we just allow things to happen naturally and not force it, when we just let things flow and happen as they should, that is the only time we realize that what we have is the real thing. That what we have is something good and that we have found where we belong. If we do not allow these things to happen this way, we could be hindering what God wanted us to have. Pag pinilit lang natin mangyari ang isang bagay or pinilit lang natin ang isang tao na manatili sa isang relasyon, we will always have doubts about the sincerity of the other person. Doubts will always be there and you will never be at peace.

Let love flow naturally. If we don’t, then we will doubt love. People fall in love because they just fall in love. It is a miracle. We meet someone who becomes more important than the rest of the people we know. For some, they just wake up and see their friend in a different way. We do not fall in love because he is the perfect person for us. We fall in love because we just do. So, I will just let myself fall when I do, and just hope that someone catches me when that moment has come.

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