I have always been competitive.  All  my life I had been competing - in academics, in the election at school, and when I was a kid, I also use to compete with my siblings for attention. My focus is always on winning.  I always have to win and when I lose, I tend to be too hard on myself.  Then, as I grow up, I have learned to let go.  Wherever I go and whatever I do, there will always be someone better than I am.  I begin to realize that the only person I need to compete with is myself.  That all I need to do is just to try to be better than I was before.  Failures will come my way.  I will not always get what I want but who cares.  As long as I do my best, I should be content.  Content but not complacent.  I should use those failures as tools to learn more, to be better.  I should enjoy the ride and forget the competition.  So even if my plans don’t push through or I don’t get what I want, I can still smile and say it’s worth every sacrifice, worth the extra mile and just tell myself, I will do better next time.

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