Do you ever realize that you are hurting me?  I don’t think so.  For you, I don’t seem to have the right to be hurt because of the things you do.  You will just tell me that I am the one holding the knife.  Ang hirap mo namang mahalin.  Lagi na lang ako ang mali.  Minsan, sinasabi ko na kakalimutan na kita pero hindi ko pa din magawa.  Coz with a simple gesture I fall for you all over again.  Pero, akala mo ba madali pinagdadaanan ko?  Akala mo ba madali ang makita kang malapit din sa ibang babae samantalang di ko alam kung ano ako sayo?  Baka kagaya lang din nila ung treatment mo sa akin - officemates, just another girl in your list and nothing special.  Akala mo ba, madali lang isipin kung ano ang nararamdaman mo? Akala mo ba madali lang yung magmahal pero di ka naman mahal nung mahal mo?  Hindi naman madali yun e. Masakit yun.  Sana alam mo yun.  Sana minsan, isipin mo rin yung sitwasyon ko para malaman mong hindi madali.  Siguro para sayo madali lang kasi alam mong hindi kita kayang tiisin, alam mo na mahal kita at kahit ano ang mangyari nandito lang ako.  Pero, alam mo rin ba na malapit na akong sumuko?  Do you know that every ounce of indifference that you pour my way, is one step away from you?  Do you know that I already feel stupid and I’m already getting tired of this game that you want me to play?  Just push me some more and I will already turn my back on you.  I’m tired, getting really tired and when that happens, no matter how much I love you never again will I look back.

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