Why did I stay? Others say, I’m rather stupid and foolish. Yes, I guess, they can say that. I am stupid and foolish cause I am still waiting for you. I am stupid coz I still believe that you can love me in spite of everything. You know everything about me. Perhaps, you know too much that you can take it against me. All reasons are pointing to one conclusion - you don’t like me, you don’t love me. Yet, I am still hoping and do you know why? Because you gave me hope. You made me hope.

You give me hope when you said that i don’t have to read someone else’s book and I should let destiny decide for itself. I never thought you’d still get hired after the interview blunder. I never thought we will be friends. Tell me, why did destiny bring you here?

You gave me hope when you said my website is telling me something same with the poster beside you - both are about weddings

You gave me hope when you said, I’m your close friend and lahat lahat na nga. I was thinking, lahat lahat meaning I am your everything?

You gave me hope when you asked me to be patient.

You gave me hope when you said that you want to finish your letter but you just have to settle things.

You give me hope whenever you tell me your problems and tell me your fears.

You give me hope whenever you remind me about angel ivan - that love is a risk and in the end, love conquers all.
Yet, you break my heart whenever you ignore my messages.

You break my heart whenever say no to my requests to talk to you.

You break my heart whenever I see you close to other women.

You break my heart whenever I hear people say that you are dating someone else.

You break my heart when you seem to have time for other people but you cannot find time for me.

You break my heart by not saying what you really feel and making me wait for you.

You break my heart everyday as I wait for you to say what you really feel for me.

My heart breaks whenever you make me feel that you don’t care for me.

My heart breaks whenever I feel that you are slowly torturing me until the day when you will finally drop the bomb and say that you don’t like me at all.

It breaks my heart whenever I feel that my hope is futile and I am up for more heartaches in the end.

Categories : My Thoughts, My Journey