My boyfriend left me when everything seem to fall into place.  Ten years ago, a storm almost broke our home.  We use to have a pawnshop, a garment business, a tables and chairs rental and my father works in a family business.  Everything then was easy.  Until God took everything away.  We struggled financially, and relationships also suffered. It was only through God’s grace that me and my sister were able to graduate from college and that I landed on a good job.  I was not able to get a good job immediately.  It took more than 3 years before I came across and got hired by the company I am working now.  Yet, it is only this year that I am starting to achieve some financial growth.

I thank my friends for introducing me to blogging and other sidelines in the internet.  Now, I am able to help my family and still leave something for myself to fulfill my dreams.  I also got a promotion from my job…. well, not really a promotion coz a few months after I worked in the company, my boss has already appointed me as an OIC.  Modesty aside, I am the second in command in the company.  I never understood why my boss had so much faith in me, but I am thankful that he does.  He even gave my sister a job in the company.  Now, he said, he is going to give me an increase next month to compensate for my contributions in the company. 

My website also poses a lot of promises.  Still very much undone but with a relatively good traffic already.  It is the website I created in preparation for my wedding day.  I had hoped to get married next year. 

I have enough money now to enjoy the fruits of my labor.  To travel, to shop a bit, to enjoy the good life and start preparing for a future.

With all these good things that are happening in my life, I cannot help but thank God.  Then, came the bump on my way.  Just when we can finally really plan and prepare for our life together, my boyfriend left.  All that I have worked so hard for seem to be meant for nothing.  I cannot move forward.  I have lost my motivation just when success is almost within reach.  I have lost my will to continue chasing my dreams because I have lost the man to whom I want to share it with.

Just when everything in my life is falling into place…. Just when my dreams is almost within reach.  I have lost my reason to dream.

Now, I believe that everything has fallen into place.  He is not meant for me.  It hurt me at first, of course but now, I have come to realize and accept that he is not the man God has reserved for me.  Now, God wanted me to make myself whole again.  He is preparing me for that person or just for Himself.  Now, I am dreaming for the right reasons.  I am working for the right reasons.  I dream for myself.  I work for myself.  I dream with God.  I work for God.  Now, everything in my life is in place and I don’t want to get lost again.

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