How do you turn your back on someone close to you? I have let you come this close, knowing that it is far too dangerous. Why did I let you enter my life? Of all the people I come across with everyday, why did I become this close to you? Why did I let you become a part of my life? How did we become friends? When did I start feeling this way? I wanted to run away from you but some force stops me from leaving. I am scared. This thing we have scares me. How do you undo what has been done?

I am not scared that you may do what he did to me coz I know you are different. You are far too different from him. What I feel for you is different. It is something I have never felt before. I have never been this scared coz I have never believed this much nor dream this much. It felt real, far too real than what it should be. Too real that I fear that it is just a dream and when I wake up, you will be gone.  I want to runaway and not look back  coz I am afraid that if I do, there is nothing there.

If you are real, if this is true I just pray that it will last until my mind turns numb and I can no longer feel the pain of losing you.  I pray that….

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