I had been telling myself to let go a thousand times already, but until now I cannot.  Perhaps, I feel that there is not enough reason for me to stay nor to let go.  I wanted to escape from this feeling.  I wanted to fly away and not to return anymore.  I wanted to leave you.  I wanted to be far from you, thinking that if I don’t see your face or hear your voice, I will be able to get over this strange feeling that I have for you.  I wanted to say goodbye but my lips can only say I love you.  I wanted to keep my distance but my feet always lead me to you.  I wanted to stay away but my eyes long for a sight of you.  I hate this madness.  I hate this pain.  I wish you can help me out of these chains.  I cried to the heavens, I know I cannot do this alone.   I cannot make my heart forget about you, when it feels that it has already found its home in you.

Categories : My Thoughts, My Journey