I had been thinking a lot about you lately and I cannot help but feel guilty.  Guilty for all the pain I have caused you.  Guilty for all the wrong things I have done and said about you.  Now I know, it is my fault that I have lost you.  I lost you once I know.  I have put that wall between us two and I don’t know I can get through it again.  How I can make you feel comfortable again.  How I can make you come to me without all the pressures of telling me that you love me.  Without the pressure of assuring me that you deserve all my love.  To make you feel that it is enough that we are together and nothing else really matters than to be with you.  If only I can bring back the past.  Those days when we were just friends, loving each other in the way we know and the way we can.  I know that no matter how many times I say sorry, the damage has been done.  I cannot bring back the past.  I just hope it’s not too late to make amends.  To start anew.  I want to make you smile again.  To set you free from all your pains and fears.  But first I know, I must let you go so you can feel free to spread your wings and fly back to me.  I know you will.  I have faith in you… I have faith in us.  I love you.

Categories : My Thoughts, My Journey