Isn’t this the same thing that happened before? I feel like this is history repeating itself. Here I am committing the same mistakes, doing the same things, feeling the same things. I loved him too much. I built my world around him. I gave him everything without him asking. It was great in the beginning. I know that he loved me the same way then. It was truly wonderful. Then, I became impatient. Looking for things that are not there. When I didn’t find them, I asked him to make them. Then, he got tired and I felt that I was losing him so I held him tight. Then, that wonderful thing we had started to fade until it vanished. Now, I am doing the same things so I had to stop myself - before I lose everything, before I get hurt again. Tama na. I had recovered from 4 years of pain, what is 4 months compared to that? It’s time to move on.

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