True love doesn’t have a happy ending: True love doesn’t have an ending.
~ Anonymous ~

Love never ends. It never falters, it never fades. It is the only thing that transcends time. True love lasts forever. It knows no reasons for it is not the mind that commands you, but your heart.

All of us have felt this. We all shared in its joy and pain. I myself felt it and I still feel it now. Commitment may have been gone and my love for him has hidden itself in the deepest depth of my heart, but I know it will always be there. I will never forget that man who loved me and whom I loved for the longest time. I will always cherish his memories and smile at those moments when I felt loved in his arms. I will always remember the kisses we shared, the moments when I cried on his shoulder, when his embrace keeps me warm, when he was the pillar to whom I lean on. I will always love him and that love will never die. Months and years may pass but he will always hold that place in my heart.

It had been almost one year since we parted. Almost one year since he broke my heart. Now, I know that I will never be whole again because part of me stayed with him and a part of him stayed with me. I can never take it back nor can he. I don’t know what the future looks like. Perhaps, that part of me that stayed with him will bring him back to me. Maybe he will come to me and ask me to love him again. I know, I still love him but that love is not meant to be so we just bury it in our past. Maybe that love will resurface and haunt us again until we finally give in to its commands. Or maybe that love will just keep mum as it sleeps and forget to wake up until our hearts find another home where love is meant to happen.

The first of August is fast approaching. After five years, this time I will not be greeting someone a happy anniversary. For the first time in five years, I will not think of a gift for someone nor think of how I can make this day memorable. For the first time in five years, there is no US to celebrate. Yes, this time, I admit that I miss you. I miss those days we have shared and think of what could have happened if I accepted your offer of starting over. You hurt me a thousand times before and you can do it over and over again. You said you love me and can’t live without me but you immediately fell for someone only a few days after we parted. That is not how I see love. That is now how fast a heart forgets. That is not what true love means. Love takes time… to heal, to flourish. It takes time to say I love you. It takes time to fall out of love for someone and fall in love with someone else. Now, after almost one year… it’s sad to say that somehow, I still love you.

Categories : My Thoughts, My Journey