This is supposed to be an inspiring blog. I wanted to lift other’s spirit as I recover from my pain. Trying to heal others as I heal myself. Trying to make others hope as I also learned to find hope again. I never expected that it is not that easy. Until now, I struggle. Until now, things are not in their proper places. There are things that I still cannot understand. I prayed so hard for God to protect my heart, never to let me fall in love again with the wrong man. Yet, here I am, hurting again. Hurting in places that I never even knew before. Why can’t things just be okay? Whenever a part of my life becomes better, one part suffers. When money comes in, love flies away.

What happiness will I gain if I gain all the money and the power yet lose love? We find happiness in loving and not in acquiring things that money can buy. We feel happier when we give something to someone who has nothing and see the smile in their faces than in buying new clothes. Because we give love and we know that we get love back. No matter how many clothes I buy, the happiness I will feel will fade minutes after new clothes are bought. Temporary happiness, nothing fulfilling. What better prize is there than winning the heart of the one you love? It surely is better than getting promoted or getting a salary increase. And even if we reach the top, it means nothing if we lose someone we love. Reaching for the sky only becomes fulfilling when you know that someone waits for you there and someone is cheering for you as you climb up. Being there can be lonely, all you can do is look down. Unless you reach out your hand, you will be alone all your life.

Categories : My Thoughts, My Journey