I am about ten degrees off the ground.  Just ten degrees more and I will completely fall.  So, I am freezing my heart now.  Stopping before I completely fall.  I hope to stand up again for I know how painful it is to fall when there is no one to catch you.  Slowly, I know I will be able to recover from all the crazy things I am feeling.  Go back to where I left my reason.  I just want stop feeling and start thinking.  Just thinking.  No emotions just reason.  No love just indifference.  No smile and no laughter.  No pain.  Just living without a life.  I think its safer this way.  I may not be happy but at least I saved myself from pain.

Categories : My Thoughts, My Journey