Two Days From Now

November 15th, 2008 by admin

Two days from now, I will celebrate the day you came into my life.  Two days from now, I can still remember how I smiled when I saw your message on my phone.  Four days from now, I can still remember how we shared that moment when nothing seems to matter.  How I cannot look into your eyes and how you asked me questions no one dared to ask.

November 17, 2007, I got a message from you asking me about the requirements for candidates.  November 19, 2007 you went to our office for your first interview.  December 10, 2007, the day we became friends.

Funny, how I still remember those dates but how can I forget?  Those were one of the greatest days of my life.  It was on those dates that you have come into my life and opened my heart again.

Time quickly flies.  You still haven’t told me how you feel but things are different now.  One thing stays the same though… I still love you.  I guess I love you even more that I did before.

I miss you my love.  After our talk last Thursday, I have understood a lot of things about you.  I felt your pain and the more I want to be there to help you, support you and cheer you up.  I want to ease your pain, to take care of you until it hurts no more.  I can still feel the warmth of you hand on mine.  The warmth of your embrace is like a dream that lingers in my mind.  I want to stay in your arms forever.  To be held by you until the sun sets.

I know you have your fears.  Fear of losing and fear of getting hurt.  But like what you have told me:  “How else would you win if you don’t take chances? You don’t lose by giving, you lose by holding back.”  You always tell me never be afraid to go a little further coz in the end, love conquers all.  Just remember this, I love you and I cannot think of any day when I will stop loving you.

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Getting Out of the Fast Lane

November 9th, 2008 by admin

Article by Dr. Harold J. Sala of Starweek

Put your house in order, because you are going to die (Isaiah 38:1)

More and more of live is lived in a fast lane.  Many will take precious hours from you in the form of phone calls, interruptions, and endless detours.  How do you get out of the fast lane?

Guideline 1: Have a plan and stay with your plan.  You can’t do everything, so list the “must do” items in one column, “should do” in another, and the “can do” in the third.  Begin with the most important “must do” item and stay with that unti you are finished.

Guideline 2: Prioritize what isn’t negotiable - time with your spouse, family and God.  At heaven’s door, you won’t be asked how much time you spent at the office, but your relationships and how you’ve spent your time will all be on the docket.

Guideline 3: Simplify, simplify, simplify.  Having more does not always satisfy; having less usually simplifies.

Guideline 4: Make every day count.  That was exactly the point that Moses made when he wrote: “So teach us to number our days, that we may apply our hearts unto wisdom.” (Psalm 90:12)

The person who lives judiciously knows that the days of our years are numbered, and that’s why he strives to make each one count, waiting on God at the beginning of every day to know how to live with purpose.

Guideline 5: To the degree that you can, live every day without regrets.  You should so live that when you die, even the undertaker would be sorry.

Guideline 6: Slow down and enjoy the flowers.  You have no second chances for some things.  So say it now, write it now, enjoy it now, and leave tomorrow in God’s hands.

“What does the worker gain from his toil?  I have seen the burden God has laid on men.  He has made everything beautiul in its time.  He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end.  I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live. (Eccleciastes 3:9-12)

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Im Sorry

November 8th, 2008 by admin

I’m sorry, I did not remain patient.  It was so hard for me to be patient.  A lot of doubts and negative thoughts enter my mind and I end up hating you.  Yet, at the back of my mind I know that I am wrong.  I have seen it.  I have felt it.  Yet, why won’t you confirm it?  It hurt me.  I never thought it also hurt you.  You seem to be doing well, philandering around while I sat at my corner watching you with my heart bleeding.  I should not have listened to what other’s say.  Of all people, I should have known better.  Because of this, I wanted to say I am sorry.  This time, I will listen to you alone, believe what I believe in because I see you and know you better than they do.  Take care my love.  I am so sorry for thinking negatively.  In the end, I pray that things will work out well for both of us.  That we reach our dreams together.  That you will hold my hand and that we embrace under the stars.  I am here for you.  I only wish to make you smile.  Let my love be your shelter, and yours my fortress. I love you dearly.

Cliche as it may sound, we hurt the ones we love.  But this time, we have started a different journey.  This time is the time for understanding, of an unexplicable understanding that only the two of us knows.  It is as if our heart speaks what the mouth cannot utter.  The time when we don’t have to say a word but just one look, just one glance will already bring about a world of understanding.  Reason… who needs reason when we have love?

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My Last Blog About You

November 2nd, 2008 by admin

Here I am again.  Trying to find answers to the seemingly endless number of questions that floods my mind.  I wanted to do a lot of things but I just don’t , seem to know where to start.  Yet, my mind never fails to bring me to that direction again.  That path I don’t want to deal with at the moment.  I wanted to be free from that thought.  That road I really want to avoid… to forget.  But there seem to be this invisible thread that makes me just walk around it, not allowing me to go that far.  At the end of the day, I still think about him.  How and why did he do certain things, say certain words.  Why include me in his list when he could have avoided it from the start.  Yet, this time, it’s a bit different.  I feel different now.  All my thoughts lead to one thing… he is not good for me.  I don’t deserve him for I deserve someone better, someone who will love me the way and as much as I can love him.  someone who will treat me the way that I deserve - with love, with care.  You love yourself too much and I think that is enough for you, that’s all you deserve and nothing more for you are not capable of loving anyone except yourself.

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I Hope

November 2nd, 2008 by admin

It had been almost one year since we met.  From then, my life has not been the same.  Others say I am blind for not seeing who you really are from the start.  Perhaps, I was really blind and now, I do not just see who you are.  I see it clearly and I am able to perceive it.  It’s like I woke up one day and see you in a different light.  I was hoping it will be a brighter day but it did not turn out that way.  The truth hurt me.  I got badly bruised.  But I would rather be bruised by the truth than smile with a lie.  I can no longer cry over the months that I wasted on you… on someone like you.  And I no longer want to waste more of my time on you.  You don’t deserve it.  You don’t deserve anything.  I have never met anyone as cunning as you are.  I have never felt anger creeping and overwhelming me until I found out who you really are.  I believed in your goodness.  I believed that you have a good heart.  But I was wrong.  All wrong.  You are totally different that I wonder if you have a heart at all.  I just hope that at the end of all these, I will not hate you.  That hate will not take over me.  They say, there’s a thin line between love and hatred and I never want to cross that line.

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Shopping Lessons

October 11th, 2008 by admin

Some people might think shopping is just a waste of money but if you just try to look at it in a different perspective, there’s actually a lot of things that you can learn from it.

If clothes don’t fit - There are times when you find clothes that you really like but when you try to fit it, it is either too tight or too loose and there are no other available sizes.  It can be frustrating but yes, that is life.  Some things are just not meant to be, no matter how badly you want it to be yours, it will just be a waste of your time.  So move on, and try to find something you like that fits you.  Surely, there are other clothes or options out there, just waiting to get noticed.  What is meant to happen will happen, what is not meant will never happen no matter how hard you try to make it happen.

Finding what you are looking for.  When I shop, I don’t really try to look at every rack much.  When I see it, that’s it.  I know what I want when I see it so I don’t waste much time on things that doesn’t interest me (there’s always an exemption to this one, of course).

Look closer.  There are times when you see a dress and you like it but when you look closer, you just get disappointed because you see that it’s not really what you expect it to be.  Either the fabric is not the nice or the works are not that fine.  It is the same with people in some cases, there are people whom you thought are great but then when you get to know them, they are not what they seem to be.  Looks and sweet words can be deceiving….

Try to fit it.  There was a time when my friend bought a dress that I thought does not look nice.  Then, when she wore it, it looks absolutely great.  I guess, we can apply it to our way of dealing with people.  We should not judge others too easily without really knowing them.  Who knows, the one we rejected could be what’s best for us.

Custom Fit and Alterations.  Well, if you really want it, then you can always have it altered but then again you know that something has changed and that it is not how it is originally made.  Or if it is custom made, then you made it the way you wanted but doesn’t it feel better when you find something that you like without doing anything?

Finding the one.  When we find what we are looking for, then we just buy it and stick to it.  No matter how expensive it is, we will save up to have enough money to buy it.  The right fabric, the right fit, the perfect color…. and even when it’s old and worn out, we just keep it coz we just love it.

This is just part of it… life has a lot of lessons to teach us.  Some are good, some may be painful.  But that’s life, everything is a risk..take your pick.=)

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Rush to Control Finances Hearkens to Warnings of a Single World Government

October 5th, 2008 by admin

Article by renowned Catholic Author Michael H. Brown

 

Lost in the hullabaloo over the economy is the trend toward global consolidation.  Astonishingly, the United States has taken over private financial institutions and may now send hundreds of billions into additional private interests on Wall Street, as it absorbs debt and assumes a degree of control.  It is a ’soft’ socialism, something that would have been unthinkable just a couple of years ago and places tremendous power in the hands of the Federal Reserve, which long has been feared as a behind-the-scenes player that will control the economy and work toward a consolidation (first of businesses, then of nations) which in turn would lead to a new world order, and perhaps even a single world system of finance and governance.

 

For many years, this has seemed in the realm of wild conspiracy, but to increasing numbers, it is not quite so wild any longer.  No one here is saying that a small group of strategists is controlling the world, but terms like ’secret governing’ directed by a relatively small number of officials are a consideration that has grown more acute in recent days.  We have long said the conspiracy is more a spiritual one, a spiritual trend, than the work of any single brilliant Geneva-or-Brussels-based cabal.  Many different entities, some large, some small, some open, some secretive, are moving in the same direction: consolidation first of finances, then of governments.  One sees this most starkly with the United Nations, the European Union, and now the move (at least at the level of finances) to dissolve borders too in the Western Hemisphere.  A former leader of Mexico even used the term ‘North American Union’ as a goal for his nation.  And a number of U.S. presidents – including Jimmy Carter and George H.W. Bush Sr. – have employed the term ‘new world order’.  Recently, former British leader Tony Blair, a Catholic, was a Yale speaking of the need to merge faith with globalization.

 

Now, we believe that one can go too far with all of this.  Not everything is a conspiracy.  But something about what is occurring on Wall Street (and at the Treasury) does not seem right.  In the wake of the reputed financial crisis (no one is really sure what’s occurring), we see headlines to the effect that ‘global firms’ are ‘set to move in’.  That’s disquieting.  Do powerful financiers actually manipulate developments and markets to such a degree as to change he landscape almost single-handedly, and for the strategic goal of a single governance?  This is the fear because a single system could be controlled, then, or at least decisively influenced, by a personage of evil.

 

Is prophecy materializing before our eyes?  We see quotes, some difficult to verify, to this effect.  In 1927, it is claimed, the president of an international organization of educators foresaw a ‘patient and persistent’ effort of ‘long duration’ to wipe the ‘cobwebs of the old order’ from our minds in order to form specifically a ‘new world order’.  We all know the strange course of education.  Is it related?  Since the formation of the League of Nations, there has bee talk of a new order buttressed by a global police force.  Is that too part of the spiritual inclination?  In 1962, Governor Nelson Rockefeller spoke of a new order that would answer economic problems.  It would come, added a former deputy assistant secretary of state, after a ‘great booming, buzzing confusion’ that eroded national sovereignty.  Let us note that the current bailout propose by Treasury would include foreign interests.  President Bush Sr., it is said, wanted to make the United Nations a cornerstone of a new world order, but since that time others have sought other means because the U.N. thus far, has not been strong enough to finish the task.  Is the best route, now, through finance?

 

It is a timely question.  Paranoid?  Perhaps.  Or vigilant?  When both Russia and the U.S. have spoken the need for a ‘new world order’ (although often at odds, apparently, with the precise approach), one has to place more stock in fears that in fact an actual level of wealth influences governments and markets and banks on all sides to a degree the public does not recognize.  Let us go back to January 29, 1991, when President Bush S. said that what was in stake with Iraq was not just ‘one small country’ but ‘a big idea, a new world order’.  This term has been used by many other officials.  Innocently?  These are quotes.  And they seem to transcend political boundaries.  In April 0f 1992, Senator Joseph R. Biden wrote an article for the Wall Street Journal called, ‘How I Learned to Love the New World Order.’  As for crises (military or financial) it is also interesting to note how banker David Rockefeller, speaking at the U.N., once said that ‘we are on the verge of a global transformation.  All we need is the right major crisis and the world will accept the new world order.’

 

Such as a financial one?  The new world order is a world that has supernatural authority to regulate the world commerce and industry, an international organization that would control production and consumption of oil, and an international currency that would replace the dollar.  We know what has been happening with the dollar.

 

Pope Leo XIII wrote of such secret power as one that ‘bends governments and forms an invisible and irresponsible power, an independent government.’  Some believe there are fewer than 500 people who control the governments behind the scenes.  Some put the number at fat smaller.  ‘It is not emperors or kings, nor princes, that direct the courts of affairs in the East,’ said Henry Edward Manning, Cardinal Archbishop of Westminster in 1877.  ‘Three hundred men, all of whom know one another, direct the economic density of Europe and choose their successors from among themselves,’ intoned the former head of General Electric in Germany.  ‘Since I entered politics, I have chiefly had men’s views confided to me privately,’ said President Woodrow Wilson.  ‘Some of t biggest men in the United States, in the field of commerce and manufacture, are afraid of something.  They know that there is a power somewhere so organized, so subtle, so watchful, so interlocked, so complete, so pervasive, that they better not speak above their breath when they speak in condemnation of it.’

 

Can this really be true?  Most of these quotes are from a hundred years ago.  And yet, that ‘patient, persistent’ effort seems not far from around us – an inexorable trend toward one-world government – as Asia consolidates, as Europe pulls together, and as the Western Hemisphere moves toward a European-Union-style of relationship among its entities.  ‘The real menace of our Republic is this invisible government,’ a former New York mayor quoted as saying.  ‘At the head of this octopus are the Rockefeller Standard Oil interests and a small group of powerful banking houses.  The little coterie of powerful international bankers virtually run the U.S. government and practically control both political parties.’

 

Oh, the finances of Washington!  Oh, the unusual decisions!  Oh, rush to consolidate financial interests, under a government umbrella.  ‘The real truth of the matter is that a financial element in the large centers has owned the government ever since the days of Andrew Jackson,’ said Pres. Franklin D. Roosevelt in 1933.

 

Whatever the truth, the rush to ‘bail out’ Wall Street is just that: too rushed.  One professor warned in 1966 there was a group with the goal of ‘nothing less than to create a world system of financial control.’  This system, he said, would be controlled by ‘the central banks of the world’.

 

Is it true?  And if so: is it just greed?

 

Or is it something more sinister?

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Conversations With God

October 4th, 2008 by admin

All of us are looking for answers. We want to know the reasons behind our predicament or the troubles that haunts us.  We search everywhere - through other people, places, books, movies.  These thirst for the truth and for answers that most of us have, our desire to find meaning, is perhaps one of the reasons why there is the abundance of self-help books in the market.  Books that claim that they have the answers.  And who can give us the best answer other than the One who created us and knows us by name?  Our God.  Yet, even if others claim that they have the answers, how can we know that their answers are  true?  That they did not write the book just for the sake of profit - promising us the answers that we so desire.  That the author is not an instrument of deception?  Against this, we must be vigilant.  As Christians, we are fully aware that the devil roams about as a roaring lion seeking whom he may devour (1 Peter 5:8).

One good example could be the book Conversations with God written by Neale D. Walsch.  It has a teen edition called Conversations with God for Teens.  As one concerned Christian wrote in the October 2008 edition of Emmanuel:

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These books are devastating.  They sound harmless enough by their titles alone.  They have been on the New York Times best sellers list for a number of weeks, and they make truth of the statement, ‘Don’t judge a book by its cover or title’.

The author purports to answer various questions asked by kids using the  ‘voice of God’.  However, the  ‘answers’ that he gives are not Bible-based and go against the very infallible Word of God.

For instance (and I paraphrase), when a girl asks the question ‘Why am I a lesbian?’  His answer is that she was ‘born that way’ because of genetics (just as you were born right-handed, with brown eyes, etc).  Then he tells her to go out and ‘celebrate’ her differences.

Another girl poses the question, ‘I am living with my boyfriend.  My parents said that I should marryyou him because I am living in sin.  Should I marry him?’  His reply is, ‘Who are  you sinning against?  Not me, because you have done nothing wrong.’

Another question asked about God’s forgiveness of sin.  His reply:’I do not forgive anyone because there is nothing to forgive.  There is no such thing as right or wrong and that is what I have been trying to tell everyone, do not judge people.  People have chosen to judge one another and this is wrong, because the rule is ‘judge not lest ye be judged.’

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Let this serve as a wake up call to parents, to priests, and religious ministers.  Let us be vigilant.  Our youth is in danger, unless we guide them and guard them from these schemes.  Teenagers can be passionate, with great hunger for answers and belongingness.  Let us bring them to where they belong - in our family, with God.

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An Open Letter

September 27th, 2008 by admin

When we met, I was devastated. You helped me through that stage as we became close friends. I helped you get the job that you want. I don’t want to say this but if not for me, you wouldn’t have gotten the position that you are in right now. I have built you up and wrote a very good sales pitch for you. When you blew the interview, I asked my boss to try to convince the client that you were just nervous and that you are really great. He did it for me, and you got the job. I was even able to bargain on giving you a higher salary. If not for me, you won’t be getting the salary that you are enjoying now. I risked losing my boss’s trust because of that, yet the 4 years of honesty and dedication pulled me through. I did all these for you, not only because you asked me to but also because I believed that you are a good person. When you came, things in my life fell into place, or so I thought. I am not saying this para sumbatan ka. I am only saying this to appeal in the goodness of your heart. I did nothing to hurt you. I hatve always tried to make things easier for you. I have always tried to please you. Though I may have hurt you in some wys by invading your privacy as you have always said, but I only did it in search for answers. I believed you and in spite of all ithe things that other people say about you, I still believed that you are a good person and you will not betray me. I believed that they are wrong, though I sometimes doubt and think that I could have just been blinded by my own feelings, I go to you and believe whatever you say.

I never asked you to love me. I never asked for anything except the truth. I just wanted to know how you feel about me, whether it’s love, friendship or just nothing. All I asked for is for you to tell me and help me move on. That’s all I’m asking for. Even when other people say that you already have someone, I wanted to hear it from you. And at the back of my mind, I never believed it coz I believe you will never do that to me. Na sasabihin mo sa akin kung may mahal ka na para hindi na ako umasa. Para hindi na kita hintayin. Para masaktan man ako, at least tapos na. I can move on and let go. Things may never be the same but that’s the way it should be. I should never have befriended you in the first place, but you just came at the right time and the right place and I just wasn’t able to resist it. I needed someone to hold on to and you were there.

Don’t worry about your job, I am professional enough not to do anything against you even if I ended up hating you after all these. I will just treat you as if you were never there and that you don’t exist at all.

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How?

September 23rd, 2008 by admin

After a few failed relationships, I thought I know better.  But you are just so different from the rest.  First, you were never really my usual type.  I don’t know why I even bothered paying attention.  It is just so weird that the man I don’t normally like is the man who treats me this way.  I hate this feeling of not being in control.  I wanted to stay away but you drew me near.  And now, you are pushing me away.  How weird is that?  I am beginning to hate you for doing this to me.  I am beginning to hate you for the things you do to me or the things you make me feel.  How can you lie to me?  What good will you get out of this?  What good will you get in hurting me?

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